Being Positive or Negative or Choose to be Neutral?

My best friend said that, “nobody is fairy tale, Fur. Everyone or everybody always do some mistakes. Even its very little mistake.” Yap, Anggi said to me. I do agree with that. But in other my point of view, any- some or many- people will be choose to be fairy tale rather than to be tazmanian devil. The big point is, any – some or many – people always try to be ‘positive’ person in their daily life than being ‘negative’. I don’t know exactly the percentage. It’s not really important for me now. I just see it from my own experiences. Even, marriage couple, hope their test pack show the positive blue sign, less than negative red sign, right?

Someday, my father said to me, “You should to be good and show your positive mind in society around you.” Then, I answered, “ Why, dad? Its kind like I’m pretending to be someone else?” Then, he answered again, “No, daughter! Sometimes positives meant that how to respect people around you, no matter whom she or he is, what their profession. With act like that, the positive energy will surround you and people will respect you back. Your mind will support to create a good attitude, smile and admirably energy.” I don’t know exactly when our conversation going after that. I just swallow it. 

Yap, I’m trying and trying to be positive, trying to always motivated, trying to always see every problem from other side, till I find the positive side. For example, how will you act, if you see barratry or people doing un normal activity? Ok, it’s happened in my life now.  I’m a teacher who lives in borderland, so far away from city, but there are only 3 teachers who ‘really’ teach in class. ‘Really’ meant that the teacher doing teacher activity. But, no one teacher, teach how to studying, learning, evaluating, gaming and teaching as well. They just come late, and then go home early before time class to go home. In other side, the fact is, my student who live far away come to school and face that the teacher doesn’t teach on that day. It’s real happened. Other side again, my student is six grade, still can’t memories all multiplication from 1 until 10. They can’t spell their Indonesian writing as well. How they read the passage is worst. They don’t know the function of comma, full stop, question tag, or terminology like that. And how can they be in six grades who want to face final exam? Insane! Still want to be positive?

Yes, I’m trying to be positive. The way is start from me. First, being an example to other teacher with come to school on time.  Second, teaching with fun method, so my students can understand what subject I’m teaching. But, how about other class? I still have duty to teach other class too. How can I divide my time to be fair whether in my class and other class? How about my students who still can’t read, count and write. Is that my duty too? I think, amoeba that has ability to split into 2 bodies can do that, even less me. Honestly, somehow I’m tired to be positive. My entire positive attitude doesn’t influence other teacher here. I’m pretty sure that all of you face the same problem in your own duty, right? The question is, are you still act like positive person?

 But, I’m tired to be like that. I’m tired pretending. I need negative. Yess, I need negative. Is that wrong?

How can I do with negative? I can do that with jeremiad, complaint, upside down, tell delirious story,  or so on. Negative for me doesn’t  meant that I be demonstrate who destroy the building with bombs, or being insurgent who against every decision who unreasonable with my mind. It’s not to be like that. Being negative for me is to fulfill my eager. Just to prove negative doesn’t wrong at all. The way to be negative is, to tell my worried stories, share it with my friends and barked at myself. Sometimes, I do indifferently. Something I learned after I do all I want above is I’m feel tired too. I’m tired to be negative. And now I understand what my father said “all your intention is effected your act. Negative come negative, positive come positive. And everything wills you do, either negative or positive always take a risk. that’s  the law”

I agree with my father’s advises. All my activity that I do today or tomorrow will take a risk. It’s alright, it’s true, valid.  The wrong is, when u act nothing, you don’t do anything, even planning or doing. And the big point is, even its negative or positive it’s about how you face it, how you learn about your life, how you grow up with your decision. It’s the process of our life, the cycle of life, right?

But sometimes, being neutral is my choice. Negative is still negative If it comes with negative, neither with positive. But, if negative combine with positive, it become neutral. It’s completing each other. I think it’s better :D And now, no matter positive or negative, being right or wrong is depend on you. You know yourself well.  But sometimes, right decision comes after we do the wrong decision. Adopted from Paul Adren’s book, “Lets us start off on the right foot by making some wrong decision”, hmhh I agree with this :D

Happy Thursday, everyone . Hope the negative and positive aura come with you now J